Relationship Hindrances, Radiances, pastures & Sirens - Lets build a community to Share the Happiness, Disturbances, Calmness

Nothing is perfect. Life is messy. Relationships are complex. Outcomes are uncertain. People are irrational. 

I think that two people are linked at the heart, and it doesn't matter what you do, who you are, or where you reside; there are no boundaries or barriers if two people are meant to be together. Having gone through a long one-sided relationship, I never call it a relationship to start with as it was always one-sided, but the man I was with always gave me a vibe that he is into it. The main reason for creating this blog is to hear, heal, and help together as a community. 

My Story:

Being a small-town girl stepped into a City, with eyes full of dreams to pursue the career of my interest. I was brought up with a mindset purely dedicated and devoting my hours to studying, and progressing each day. I am someone who used to think relationships are waste of time and worthless, they include a lot of fights, ego clashes, and Cryings cause that's how I saw my friends in toxic relationships. I made up my mind to never enter into a relationship once I step into Med school. I cleared my medical entrance and got into one of the very best Med schools in my country. 

The time passed I was good during my first semester and got a very impressive grade but it all started when I met a guy from my own section, I cannot say him as the most handsome person but I can say that he is charming, his smile is radiating, we were like two opposite poles, we never agree on the same statement. There came a day when we had to visit a Hospital far away for emergency services during my third year of medicine, we had traveled through bus entire night, we spoke about each other a lot, we got to know each other, and he was clear on what he wanted, his principles, his way of speaking, attention to details, made me trust him. He is one of those guys who doesn't speak much until he feels that his opinion will be valued. I gradually started developing feelings with him ( i have no idea that boys will be so friendly to girls in bigger cities, cause from the place I came speaking to a boy itself is a big thing, so when he was being friendly with other girls in the same way as how he is with me friendly hugs, jokes, made me feel special unlike other girls who are used to it) I fell hard for him cause he is the only one who made me feel that I started loving him, I started admiring him, he started being closer to me than anyone else in college, I got a feeling that he likes me I took a decision and proposed him, he stated that he never had feelings of love on me and was always seeing me as a well-wisher, Good friend!! 

That came as a sudden hit but gradually we started talking more and more and our conversations over call lasted for 5-6 hours, eventually, I started gifting him whatever he asks for, and in 3 months the worth of the gift reached whooping USD$3500. I never regretted the amount I spent on him, but he is embarrassed to be with me in public, he gives a statement that I am not like all boys to be clingy when others are watching, he maintains that distance, he never texts me, I have to crave for his time, he kisses me or used to become physical with me, shower love up on me whenever I give him a gift!! We drifted apart for our internship in our final year of medicine that was when I realized that he was using me cause he never called me, I have to call him, but he never texts me, I have to be the first person to text him, he never misses me, I am the one who says I love you he simply smiles at it and never replies back! 

After 4 years of dilemma, I got clarity he was never connected to me, the reason why it took 4 years cause he used to say he loves me and he got connected to me but he can't take a relationship, he doesn't want a relationship and he used to flirt with other girls give attention to them, text them, it felt humiliating. I used to crave and long for his attention, and time, I made my entire world like him, and never gave attention to friends, I was solely lost in his thoughts, loving him and being obsessed with him. It's taking me so much courage to come out, even now I look at notifications on my mobile craving for him, I didn't speak to him about this I didn't say him I want to move away from him even now I am getting fooled by him, cause I got addicted to him.

Why this Blog?

Here I created this blog with the intention to heal together, there are many people out there in this world who are having relationship issues or who are having a wonderful happy relationship, we can share each other's story, we can share each other's pain, and happiness. Happy relationships make our readers glow, while relationship hindrances make our readers suggest how to turn better, we will embrace this journey of transformation together with the stories, and issues, worldwide. Let us the life of other personnel and let's help each other in healing happily. Let's End up this WORD DEPRESSION caused by loneliness. 

Learnings From my story ( suggestion i wanted to give from my love life): 

There is an existence outside of a bond. And, unfortunately, that is the reality we take for granted. We devote almost all of our efforts to mending our love lives, nurturing, preserving, and hoping for them. And in the process, we disregard what is deeply intimate to us, our own lives. And this isn't just true for individuals who are desperate for someone to say yes. It is also true for individuals who are already in a partnership. They are so short-sighted that they cannot see beyond their relationship. What about your own life, personality, job, goals, mental peace, development, happiness, nightmares, and space? Do you ever settle down and reflect? No. I'm not suggesting that compromises and adjustments are terrible in a bond. I applaud you for being so adaptable and caring. My issue is that you did not appreciate that individual in addition to yourself. Why did you stop appreciating yourself? Why have you become so... unrecognizable? Don't you want to be yourself again? Don't you think so? Think.

Come let us join our hands together, and create a world full of love. I started to firmly believe in one saying:

“The times may have changed, but the people are still the same. We’re still looking for love, and that will always be our struggle as human beings.” — Halle Berry

In short, We've been given the blessing of love, but love is like a rare shrub. You can't just take it and put it in the closet, or expect it to go away on its own. You must keep nurturing it. You must properly care for and foster it. 

To keep myself motivated and to keep myself not going behind him, i gathered some cool images from google and created my laptop wallpaper through canva; you can have a look at it here, and if you like it, kindly go for it.